Time is a great healer, and it takes time to come back.



Sorry for being posted AWOL for the last few days, I’ve been busy, and tired, and forgetful at times!

In my last post, I had taken my day off from running following a 10day roll of running every day.  I recommenced my routine on Friday, and having been at the physio the day before, my body felt great!  I went out, and managed to run my 3mile loop in the fastest time since my come-back….a whacking 20:13.  I wasn’t even pushing to run fast, but I could feel the legs feeling nice and loose, and actually functioning like a runner wants them to function.  

It was a great boost, and suddenly made me confident that what I am doing is actually a good thing, and that I just have to be patient while the training effects work throughout the body.  It’s not a case of everything going to be like they used to, where I can run at 6minutes per mile pace for a 20mile run, just because I want to; but a case of I am a new athlete…..what went before is history.  I am starting from scratch, and not getting myself involved with training groups, and the thought of others scrutinizing my every single step.  In the past I have let what others think affect what I do…..I’ve toed the line, knowing that others are looking at my performance; feeling myself straining to achieve what I’m “meant” to achieve, instead of relaxing, and embracing the fun of being able to do what lots of people could only dream of doing.

I hope, when the time is right, that I can take this mentality into races, and not get caught up trying to impress certain people.  I will strive to impress myself.  Impress myself with the fact that I CAN run.  Impress myself that I can achieve what I want to, through sheer commitment, and belief, and that if I want to do something, then I should do it no matter what others think.  

Get rid of the haters, and be happy with myself because I am the person I am.

So the last few days I’ve continued to do the 3mile loop, running late 21minutes for Saturday and Sunday, and then the last two days I’ve run around 20:20 or so.  It has been getting icy the last couple of days too, so it really is a time to watch your footing out there, and be cautious going around bends.  It doesn’t matter whether you’re a 5minute mile runner, of a 10minute mile runner, if you hit ice while going round a corner, there’s a chance you’re hitting the deck…..and nobody wants that!  So be careful out there folks.

Uni has been ok this week.  I have an assignment due on Thursday which investigates Leadership in Total Quality Management in Businesses…..sounds a hoot eh?!  I have 17papers to reference during a 3000word essay. Blaaaahhhhh.  So far I have 0 words on paper, but I have written an abstract……which was along the wrong lines, so needs altered. It will be a busy 36hours for me I guess, so if you don’t hear from me tomorrow night, you’ll know why! :-p

One great thing I did today was to install a new shower screen in the bathroom for my Mum.  When we moved into the flat a few years ago, we had the bath replaced with a double shower cabinet for my dad, because he was too poorly to get in and out of a bath.  After his passing last year, and the shower tray having a crack in it, we decided to get a bath re-installed (I’ve missed having somewhere to have a soak actually!).  The plumber came on Friday and fitted it for us, but it was up to us to do the screen.

NO PROBLEMO!  I’m quite handy to be honest, and don’t mind giving things a go, and it was really straightforward to be honest.  Anyway, within 3hours (time taken out while mum went for another tile drill bit, and masking tape) I had it up, and even put the silicone sealant around the back edges.  It looks great!  🙂

So here I am, 9:15pm, and all set for going to bed.  I will get up super-early tomorrow to get my run in, then make sure I’m working on my essay by 8:30-9am latest.  Then I have signed myself up for the University’s slot at the Velodrome from 4-5pm.  We’re going to have a points race, a scratch race, and an elimination race, so it will be a tough workout, but I can’t wait to go and blow the cobwebs away, and get the heart rate up to its max! 🙂

PS.  The picture at the top is me and my friend doing a session a couple of years back…..I saw this quote, and thought it would make a great background for it.  I added to the end of the quote, because I believe this has true meaning to me.  I’m actually thinking about printing it out, and framing it for my room, as a reminder that it’s yourself that notices your differences first, so always ask yourself “am I happy with what I’m doing?”  If not…….make a change – it’s all about you. 🙂

Night y’all.